May 2012
8 posts
I act like shit don’t phase me, Inside it drives me crazy My insecurities could eat me alive But then I see my baby Suddenly I’m not crazy It all makes sense when I look into her eyes…
“Don’t give up because something went wrong; give up because you tried your...”
– Unknown (via anniebanniebanana)
I put this fake smile on and laugh.
I wish I could let people know about my problems. It helps to vent you know? but I hate the fact that people look at me with… pity, when I say things like my dad and grandpa are respectively slowly and quickly passing away. How much I work for almost no pay because I want to help out pulling 12 hour shifts 5-6 days a week if not more. How the court won’t let me see my grandpa, and how...
I can laugh All I want inside I still am empty So...
I’ll be just fine Pretending I’m not I’m far from lonely And it’s all that I’ve got
The Used
2 tags
Getting over someone.
Just don’t check up on that person, just don’t. Don’t go to their facebook or tumblr, don’t text or call them to see how they’re doing, that’ll make you miss them even more, believe me. The best thing one can possibly do is to try to move on because if you never try to succeed or fail trying, you’ll be stuck believing in a wishful state of thinking, the kind of thinking that fogs ups...
And I do miss you I just thought we were meant to...
I used to be a hopeless romantic.
But then I destroy every relationship around me one way or another. I’ve lost hope. No longer wanting to be the knight in shining armour. Now I’ve become the bad guy wearing black. The ones the fairy tails tell you to stay away from because they’re right. I’m only a hollow shell of what I used to be.
April 2012
1 post
Joyous Suffering
I’m perfectly content. Taking my last step towards adulthood, because age has nothing to do with it. It’s all about your state of mind and how you’ve learned from past mistakes, the balance between right and wrong. Knowledge is the true power most people tend to forget about.
March 2012
2 posts
I can count on on hands the people who actually truly cared about my well being and loved me. Only people who I will ever have trust in.
I’m back! kinda, this is going to be my more private tumblr that I can actually post stuff on.
November 2010
1 post
Forgotten memories…
October 2010
1 post
I feel as
if I’ve grown a lot in the past few months. I’m not as weak or emotionally fucked up as I used to be. I’ve realized more and more that I don’t need a girl right now. I just always go from relationship to relationship trying to find my dream girl, I think I’ll wait on that for now and just focus befriending more people. I still miss a lot of my old friends though.
August 2010
3 posts
I know I haven’t written a post in a while… I’ve been thinking about everything thats been going on lately and I think I’m finally ready for a new chapter in my life. I realize how absorbed I was with my online friends and how much of a secret life I led without my real friends finding out, but I’m about to leave for college very soon and I hope you guys are all doing...
This blog is closed.
You don't love me, you love the idea of me.
July 2010
16 posts
I think part of the reason I hate staying home so much is the fact that I, without a doubt, always get depressed when I’m alone for too long. Thats all this house really is. A place where no one else is ever home besides me.
I tend to look at tumblrs of people in bad relationships or people who are heartbroken and read their posts. I want to reach out my hand and talk to them about how things are going even if it is only for a few moments. I feel like a creep but at least my intentions are pure.
Be back later, Bye for now. :]
You move on, don’t you? You have to move on.
I’m not the one that you want, I’ll...
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
I think I’m starting to lose my sense of humor Everything is so tense and gloom I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the room Just as soon as I walk in It’s like all eyes on me So I try to avoid any eye contact ‘cause if I do that then it opens a door for conversation Like I want that… I’m not looking for extra attention
SHE SAID YES <3 One last time before I leave.
2 tags
Annie : gotieyourselfnakedtoatree Me : uhh… you would like that wouldn’t you? you sicko… Annie : LOL WTF I wouldn’t be around Me : then why the nakedness? Annie : my camera would
Its pointless
I’ve been looking at your tumblr daily, so why not just follow you? lol :]
Why do I keep fucking up and calling her by your name?
‘Like’ this and I will tell you what i like, dislike, love about you, my first impression and a confession. korea is pretty boring.
You’re already killing me, how are you gonna hurt me more if you love me?
I love boy meets world, it remembers me of you so much :]
“No I don’t want to be friends with you, I can hate you or I can love you for the rest of your life and those are the choices as far as I see it.” - Boy Meets World
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Dear E
Thank you for being there when I was so alone. I don’t know how to describe the relationship we had. We had a relationship I guess. Even if it only lasted a while, you thought me much and you opened me up to the real world again. You free’d my emotions and helped me feel, but with feeling, also came my depression and I got shallowed up by it eventually. We don’t really...
Your perfect for anyone, anyone could love you, thats just the type of person you are. She’s perfect for me and only me, so I’ll love her and won’t let go.
June 2010
40 posts
I'm a slut.
ackhun:
A slut craves for the attention that is received from those who surround them. A slut would like to physically, and mentally connect with a person personally. Most importantly, they’re always finding their way into the arms of so many people, because they want to know that they can be significant in someone’s life. I want to know, and be.
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Dear ML
Thank you for making me food when I’m hungry. Thanks for not telling on me when I come home completely fucked up and when I trusted you with secrets.. We don’t really have a close relationship but its good to know that someone’s still looking out for me.
-062910
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Dear MM
How you holding up over there man? I fucking miss the shit out of you my nigga. Things never change, shits still the same here I guess. I really wish you would come back soon. I know you are having a hard time up there and I really hope that things get better for you. Your like my brother and I fucking love you. You almost exactly like me, you grew up with a fucked up past and went down...
I think I’m finally content with how everything is. Well almost everything, just a few more things to fix.
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise...
Dear Girl at the soccer game.
I pinky promised you that we’d hang out again and I think we are sometime this week. You said you wanted to hang out and you’ll call me again when you don’t have to study for midterms. I could really use a friend in Korea. Hope to hear from you again soon.
-062910
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Dear L
I don’t even know if you count as the last person I kissed because you forced yourself on me and I pushed you away after you kissed me… but I want to write a letter to you anyways. I just want you to know if you ever read this that I’m so glad that your out of my life. I really don’t like you, you have this need for attention and you think I’ll give it to...
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Dear ANB
Yea, I guess its kind of suprising that your the one that hurt me the most. I still don’t know why I was so hung up on you. I guess its because I really liked you but never got to have a true relationship with you so I always wondered what could have been. I haven’t been reading your blogs at all lately, mostly because I’m trying my best not to feel the way I always...
Letters
Yea I know I’m doing them super fast… but I’m really bored in korea and I don’t really have anything better to do…
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Dear… Someone from my childhood
I wish my memory was better so I could remember you. Sadly I remember close to nothing from my childhood. Maybe if I did I could write something to you. Maybe we’ll meet again one day and I won’t remember you but we’ll become close. Wouldn’t that be something?
-062810
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
I can’t really think of someone who I drifted from… but I guess this counts.
Dear SM
I’m glad that we’re friends now. We’re not as close as we used to be but that’s kind of hard to do now. At least now we can both look back at and be able to smile and laugh about the things we used to do. I’d like to thank you for all the things you’ve done for me...
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk...
Dear Grandpa
I want to thank you so much for everything you’ve done for me. I’m truly whole heartedly grateful. Ever since I was little and up until you passed away, you raised me to become to person I am today. You played with me when no one else was there for me. You took care of me because my parents were never home. You taught me everything I know now and important life lessons....
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Dear Gloria
I wanna thank you for all the things you’ve done for me these last 3 years. How you were there for me so much and you would talk to me late at night when I was all alone. I’m glad I got to know you so well. I’m sorry we’ve drifted so much lately, but I still think of you as my closest internet friend and I hope you think of me that way too. No matter how much...
Day 5 — Your dreams
Dear Dreams
You were never really there since I was a little kid. My parents never taught me to dream or told me that “you can do anything you believe in”. Instead I just lived my life one day at a time, with no clear goal or finish line. No motivation to move forward or have hope. I grew up in poverty and went through so many struggles, if only you were there to guide me through...
Day 2 — Your Crush
Dear Elizabeth.
I want you to know that even though we’ve known each other for so long, I’m glad we didn’t actually start getting to know each other till just recently. I was such a wreck before and I was still a wreck when we decided to actually start talking instead of the casual hey every month or so. Yet you helped me greatly, I didn’t actually think anyone would ever convince me to quit...
30 Day Letter Challenge
Day 1 — Your Best Friend Day 2 — Your Crush Day 3 — Your parents Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative) Day 5 — Your dreams Day 6 — A stranger Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to Day 12 — The...
I would check up on you..
anniebanniebanana:
lynettemofukka:
.. but it seems like you’re doing perfectly fine.. So I never bother.